When life hands you lemons, you sometimes get caught up in the sourness of it all.
I’m going to forewarn you, this is a ‘thoughts’ post. No pretty pictures, no fun ideas, just some ramblings from a mind that thinks too much.
These past couple of months have been trying, actually more than trying. The last couple of months have completely sucked the life out of me. When you’re depressed, it’s really hard to be creative & to want to share all the happy, pretty things in life. It’s a struggle to pull yourself out of bed in the morning and to plaster that smile on your face for the world to see. So often lately I’ve just wanted to pull the covers up and over my head and disappear into the sheets. It would be easier wouldn’t it? Easier than facing your boss, facing neighbours, facing kids teachers, facing the world.
When you’ve been swallowed up by the dark hole that is depression, coming out of it feels like climbing a wall that continuously crumbles at your fingertips. You are working so hard to get to that light at the top, but you just can’t reach it.
Sometimes you can do everything right, and everything will go wrong. You want to be a strong independent woman who can stand up to what’s wrong & speak your mind. Your voice matters, right? And sometimes when you do that, you will get beaten down. You will be told your voice doesn’t matter and what you think is wrong. That the strong belief you have in yourself and your values are not enough, or not worth it. You are not in charge, so you don’t get a voice. That person you thought you knew, you don’t. The friend you once trusted, no longer worthy of a glance.
Some days life sucks. And some days life is beautiful. Some days life gives you lemons and it’s your choice to decide whether you’re going to get lost in the sour or make them sweet.
I’m trying to wake up each day and make life sweet. It’s damn hard and it doesn’t come easy, but the payoff at the end of the day is worth it. The peace of mind, being able to relax, it’s a feeling I hold on to it tightly. Only you can decide what kind of day you’re going to have. So I want to throw out a challenge, you and I, lets make everyday our best. Even when we don’t feel like it. Even if we wake up in a funk and think “Ugh, what a shit morning”. Wake up and smile, say to yourself “I’m going to kick ass today”. And then make the day your best.
My friend, you & I deserve the best.